Just about everyone has a love/hate relationship with their body. I guess as women we tend to feel that we have to be perfect according to a certain “standard”. Its all B.S., everyone is different and beautiful in their own way. I can remember having the “fat” converstion with my grandma while I was in high school. Every night I would take out my clothes for school and I would try on my outfit and show my Grandma. One night I decided to ask her a question I had been tossing around in my head. “Grandma do you think I’m fat?” her response “girl please your are not fat, your thick”, lmao. That was the first time I had ever been called thick. I always felt like I huge compared to everyone else…mind you I was the same height I am now, 5’5″ and around 145lbs. Small waist, big booty and great legs. Here’s a pic for reference…this was my 12th grade homecoming pic:
As you can see my perception was waaaay off, I was a tiny thing. Instead of embracing who I was I focused more on trying to be what I “thought” was the standard. It didn’t help that I grew up in a household that was limited when it came to affection and praise. For the longest time I thought I was ugly. No one should ever feel like they don’t want to look at themselves in the mirror, takes pictures or even smile. It’s important that we show our young girls…daughters, sisters, cousins that it’s okay to be who you are and to love yourself before you attempt to love anyone else. I didn’t learn to truly love me until I was an adult…as a young women I relied too much on what others thought of me. I was always craving that attention that I didn’t get as a child. In the end only you can make you happy. You can’t depend on others for your happiness, you will always end up disappointed. So here I am 12 years later, a little thicker, but still beautiful none the less. I am happy, healthy and still a work in progress. So ladies let’s be (and stay) confident, inspire others when we can, love ourselves, and continue to work towards being better women.
Safari Jacket – OldNavy
Ruffled Tank – OldNavy
Skirt – Target
Peep Toes – Calvin Klein via DSW
Bracelet – F21